Follow Up...

Oh.. Its 720pm now! Getting closer to 730pm! I guess I should remember the reason behind this post? Or rather remembering the event?

I believe the new tutor has reached and most of the students have reached the centre as well. So my unglam story will SPREAD and almost everyone in the centre will know as I know she's that kind of person that will verbal diarrhoea to anyone she can get.

I guess by looking the way I phrase my sentences should divulge my mood at this point of time? So in a way I have let down the matter, moving on... All credits go to Sara! Meeting up with her is always a pleasure thing, and I have learnt a new term from her! Hahaha. That is 'verbal diarrhoea".

I seriously need a person to tell me or analyze the situation that I was in about whether the way I do things or behave, or my attitude etc in this matter. And Sara IS the person came in time.

I really feel that I am lost somehow because of this matter, as I have gotten lots of feedbacks and comments about myself. I would say its a good thing as it allow me to grow up faster.

Looking at things optimisticcally should be the way right? Rather than live unhappy everyday, live life to the fullest and in a happy way! So I should be correct to be the way I am now. Hehe.

Really thank you Sara! Love you lots! Jia you for your degree!

End of Story? I hope so..

Okay. Finally this story is coming to an end. But will it be a start to another event? I hope not.

I went down to the tuition centre to sort out some administrative stuff to handle over my job. Initially the attitude was like normal, talking a little. But when I started to explain the paper work, she started to get angry as well.

As I revealed one by one of the untouched materials (total there are 4 stacks), she got madder and madder. She said that "Why do you want to print the next topic when you have not even finish one? You think I am a printing company is it?" in a very furious tone.

I mean I could have clear those bad log if I am able to stay with them for a year. I will not leave those untouched teaching materials behind when I requested it. But I know that her mood was bloody boiling and so throughout her scoldings, I kept mum. I have the thinking of just letting her to scold me. In a way I am answerable to myself that I had at least taught the students what they required previously. In addition, I understand that she is taking up all these shit left by me so I did not have the right to say anything. So I just let her vent her unhappiness out.

I wasn't feeling very unhappy or even much disturbed after her lecture. In fact, I am glad that I have left that place, but it was my first time leaving a working place leaving such a bad impression behind. I am just disappointed by myself. But all these wasn't under my control!

She said that I need to hand her the topics notes and worksheet once I have gone through. But hello, you didn't tell me! And when I told her there are mistakes in the questions she said highlight the mistakes in red and she will look through it and make the changes.

Not only this, she asked my why are there extra copies? She claimed that she always printed exactly. Hey hey, are u sure u did not make any mistakes at all? I made, I admit and I deserve comments/lectures from you. But now for those I didn't, I took it up too.

I suddenly felt lost. In a way what is my bottomline in enduring such stuff and what kind of person I am actually? The way I do things etc. It set me thinking. And I even felt nothing even she shouted at me:"You are terrible!".

I really couldn't comprehend and I want to post it now so that I am able to see what I was experiencing actually after a talk with sara tomorrow. Hope she is able to help me!