26th June 2011-Volleyfest Day 2

So when first day of event added, all of us headed back home to rest for sure. Therefore I did not even has the energy to attend Yi Shan's 21st bdae celebration. Felt bad but this matter was really not on my mind as seriously tired.

I slept on the bus almost did not feel like waking up. It was such a nice sleep. But I couldn't fall asleep as soon as the moment I got home as still need to wash the event t-shirt and my fbt. And also standby for as long as I could to see if there were any last minute stuff to settle for Day 2.

By 930pm, I got the washing done and hang the clothes in front of a fan and off I went to sleep. Definately would not want to wake up, but has no choice to drag myself out of the bed. I kept thinking of the bee hoon and coffee I'm going to get to lure myself out of bed. Haha.

Sunday's morning buses were really hard to get. I was supposed to be at the bus stop that I could hop on to Lester's car by 645 am but 635am I was still at my house bus stop there where I waited for 20 minutes. This 20 minutes I can walk there already. Haha. But luckily Lester was late as he could not wake up! Hahaha. So I was considered early. Haha.

So we reached there at 720am, 5 minutes after the scheduled meeting time. When we reached the sports club room, only she was there. We started calling people to see where they were. Some were late but important members like Eugene and Elson were still sleeping. But after they received her calls, they rushed down immediately and reached school by 750am. They were SUPER FAST. Eugene from sentosa cove and Elson from bukit panjang. Their speed confirm reached 100km/h.

But when they were here, they appologized to her and she did not accept it. She just turned and walked away. She asked Eugene an additional question saying that if she did not call, he is not going to wake up is it. Obvious Eugene said yes. And so all the more her fire came up and she walked away again.

The two of them were unhappy about it as they sincerely appologzied to her but she did not accept it. At least on the account that they risked their life to come here, she should accept it. So somehow we managed to discuss this without her presence and we sugguested to pull stunt for the evening's xlb buffet celebration. We all were agreed to this idea as we thought it was her who paid for the deporit. But in the end it was Eugene who paid for the deposit and so we still went for it.

The matches all that were all played smoothly. It was always things happening within us. When she was the ball picker, she actually enjoyed the match so much that she forgot to pass the ball to the server. Faint. You are dragging the play. You need to be professional when you are in that position.

Another incident was she initially was at the MC area to help picking the ball but she left her position halfway through. The reason was the sports club president came in. And so left her position and came to sit with the president. Seriously cannot make it. At least you call another person to help you to cover and not just walking away! Faint totally.

But even if she has called another one to take her place, I still can say its not right as you are leaving for some other reasons and not any valid reason.

My job in this event extended to become a washer. As milo from the macdonalds spilled and diritied the table cloth we borrowed. Not only me washing it, Alan did it with me. But apparently not many realized it and somehow all the hardwork put it was not appreciated by HER.

Her words of thanks also came later than Eugene's one and sounded so superficial. Not sincere enough. Up till now, even as a friend, she took advantage of you and feel like we should give it to her. Come on man. You are not living in your own world but obviously she is.

So after the event we had the xlb buffet. It wasn't that awesome. Ding Tai Fung's dao sar xlb is even nicer than crystal jade's one.

The best best part was the buffet comes with the steamboat right? She FORGOT that she is still down with her virus and she almost dip the ladle inside the soup. Win totally. I kao tau to her lor. She sit outside also expect others to take chilli for her, order for her etc. I was trying to ask someone to take chilli for me as I was sitting inside and don't feel like going out as I got to get 2 persons to get out before I can get out. So after much asking she then volunteered for me.

No initiative, no thoughts for others, loves selling fish so much and thinks she is the only one who is right. After an event uncovers ALL of YOU. I am touchy about you that all my friends ask me to cool down man. You are just so irritated to me.

The best part is what? You didn't even know what went wrong with this event and so explains why you did not know the reason why my attitude towards you changed as well...

Another best part is, none of us is going to tell you what went wrong we all know that you just like to sell fish so much!

17th June- Continue...

4th Matter- Mikasa's Delievery

When I was on the bus back home then I recalled that where is the invoice for Mikasa as it has already delivered on Thursday. So I sms Si Jia and asked her about it. Her reply: "Idk. Ask dennis. :(." This was actually the how many don't know I have heard just from that 3 hours plus with you. So I was thinking you have no idea for most of the stuff I asked you.

I replied her that the invoice usually comes together with the delievery and so most likely maybe its with keng yong or inside the box though I would still ask Dennis about it. And so again then she realised about the fact for invoice (that is usually with the delivery) and said will ask keng yong about it.

She was supposed to collect the delievery (it's just a box) before 6pm but she only reached 7pm. So when she reached, she was like signalling me to go. But I don't want. So i like ask Lester to dig the ball with me. Haha. This is my first action of staying away from her. So the invoice issue just gonna wait.

Miscellaneous Stuff

Alright, someone's 21st is due in September and so part of the SOP is to get her the birthday gift. I went to ask Christie about it then found out she has bought already! Haix. Means I cannot tap on her brain to think of what to buy liao. Wanted to ask Yng Tyng but Grace was around, not sure whether can I ask in front of her so didn't ask her in the end. I am quite sure Yng Tyng will be invited though thinking now Grace should be invited as well. haha.

So i need to remember to go ask Yng Tyng about it. :)

Today Christie's junior volleyball team for the Volleyfest came down for friendly. Their team is not bad for us in recrea level but may not be good enough to win in the event. They got short balls and are those really down if there are no blockers. Christie was hiding all the way from all these balls! Haha.

Out of the 3 sets played, we won 2 sets. Not bad isn't it?! But that's because we have got Paul and Christie for their power service, Lester and Eugene (pro players) and Joel for receiving only I guess? Haha!

Though I was inside their team but seriously I didn't do much as my judgement was off. haha. Balls that are in become out to me and vice-versa. Haha. But it's okay. :D

Elson and Ting Ting told me that I received a very very low ball from a spike from their team. But I seriously CANNOT recall. They kept telling me its really very nice as the spiked ball was really low. Hm... Haha.

Lastly, when we were keeping the balls, I counted the number to be 9 and so we lacked of one ball. In the end, the last ball I was actually holding on to it. And Chrisite, Iggie and she all alughed. I was in that state because of you lo. And you stll can laugh.

One last thing I guess. I went back yesterday without showering as the girls toilet is filled with basketball girls. So I decided to head back home. When going up the stairs, I saw Keng Yong. So quickly grabbed the chance to ask him about the filling in of forms. He said best is not to sign for the participants in any forms.

Then ho seh liao lor. She went to sign for Cheryl's form as witness. I asked her about this during volleyball session. She kept telling me its nothing. I also know its nothing, understnad it as 'just-for-show'. But because we are the organizers now, we ought to be more careful. Haix. Seriously you like never grow up. Okay, finally finish blogging. Think I could not fall back into sleep is because of ALL these. But talking to Christie about some of the stuff here, feel relieved finally. :)

25th June 2011- Volleyfest Day 1 and Preview

Okay.. Finally settle the issue with posting and so posted the previous posts I didn't manage to post earlier.

As you can see all the posts were on her basically. Okay, maybe I shall continue with it. Talk about what happened during the event.

So we stayed over in school in the sports club room on Friday night. After the usual Friday's volleyball session, we proceed to the sports club room and we started our preparation work for the next day's event.

I would say okay, the whole preparation work is rather smooth. First time I see guys folding clothes (the t-shirts for participants) and Lester pumping only 10 balls using about 2 hours. Haha. I was cutting the Mr Bean voucher from A3 size paper into small slips. I am pro in using pen knife to cut paper already because my holiday job requires me to cut newspaper advertisements. Haha. So just nice the skill is able to put into use. :D

Then after getting the goodie bags done, we got the tables and necessary stuff down into the multi-puropose hall 5 that nearly killed most of the guys as the tables and white board were really heavy! Haha. I carried it once and its enough to see how heavy the table was. Haha.

Some problems were met when setting up the net as the net is cui. Haha. The middle of the net always sag and so we got to set the net real high before pulling the net sidewards real hard to get the height we want and at the same time the middle part was okay.

Next was about the arrangement of the tables like where should be the registration booth and where should be the goodie bags booth. Ok la, this arrangement thingy got nothing much to talk about. Main thing was her idea on the arrangement wasn't really correct and so in the end headed for my suggestion.

So things were almost done and it's supper time! Eugene wanted to call for Mac so that we don't have to travel and we all could eat together. However, I was seriously need to abstain from those heaty stuff as we are gonna to stay throughout the night and also next day. So a part of us wanted to go to Foong Seng there. I went to ask Eugene if he wants to eat there. He replied to me in a slightly harsh tone saying that "I'm not going to drive there hor.".

I was like, wow. I never ask you to drive there because you have explained to me that the parking fees all that. We all can walk there as it is also considered part as a bonding session as we get to talk along the way. Ok lor, half went foong seng and half had mac.

During the supper at foong seng, the few of us actually had a heart to heart talk. Bascially on her again. I was so agitated that the rest all finished eating their food but I wasn't even halfway through. There were so many things to talk about.

Okay, then we headed back and around raffles hall there, we saw the SOC la, police cars again for me and Huisi. Haha. They were there for an excercise.

During the time we were at foong seng, she actually feedbacked to those who were in the sports club room to soften down as her keng yong was sleeping inside the room. Those who were there wasn't very happy.

After supper we bathed at the SRC toilets. Wow, it was super quiet and when I was bathing inside, I actually don't feel very safe and uncomfortable as I was the only girl in the toilet! Elson and Dennis were at the guys toilet. They crapped that maybe they should enter the girls toilet with me. Haha. But in the end still never as we never know who may come in and see them and they will be ho seh liao. Haha. Lucky nothing happened during the time I was alone in the girls toilet. :)

By the time we were done, it was about 3am I guess. Participants reporting time was at 7am. Left 4 hours only. I decided not to sleep as seriously, sleeping for that few hours is not enough. I might as well not sleep. So we discussed and decided to watch movie again! Haha.

Initially we chose B+侦探 but it has too much of talkings and they couldn't hear the sounds properly as we cannot blast the sound too loud. The talkings were soft but the sound effects were loud. Too much talkings also caused us to be sleepy also. Haha. So we changed to the "Priest" i think which was more action pact according to Elson.

When we finally finished watching the movie, its 6 am already. We need to take ice but no driver as if not they got to pay for the parking and so Elson and Yingpeng walked to Sheares Hall to get ice and they were back by 630pm. Considered fast.

Meanwhile we need to breakfast. So I ordered Macdonalds and it actually need an hour! By then we need to start our event liao.

Indeed, the rest woke up too late and when we were down to open the MPSH, about 20 to 30 participants reached. I feel so paiseh as we should reach earlier than them but we were not. I think its the comm members who feel the rush rather than the head feels the rush.

Before going down to MPSH, I nearly wore slippers down as I thought only the event t-shirt is neccessary. BUT! Last minute she said we need to wear covered shoes. Ho seh lor. No extra socks and got to re-wear those on Fridays. Its okay but can't she just mention things earlier?

And we have got helpers came from home and I bet they did not know about this. Definately, few helpers were seen wearing slippers around. Seriously cannot make it.

I clearly remember when we were inside, many came to queue to register already here goes the busiest period of the day. We need to check the forms; make sure all is signed appropriately and all participants submitted a safety and health declaration forms each. However, many did not know about this even though Elson actually did send email and sms the captain of each team. So many captains came to tell me that they do not have enough forms!

We only prepared like 30 forms each and so this is obviously not enough! So I was quite upset by this fact and told them not in a very nice way (haha) that they should know about this and I do not have enough forms for them. They looked shocked and felt helpless too. Haha. I reported this matter to Elson first and asked him to help me tell Si Jia I think as she's the head of this event afterall.

Somehow in the end, Keng Yong and Elson came back with the forms and handed to me and so we finally got the registration down. Phew. If not it is really going to be in a mess. In the end, they printed too many extras as the afternoon teams almost all handed in the forms from their side.

After that then I get to know that sports club room has a printer..

I want to thank Huisi and another girl which I forgot her name for helping me to mann the registration booth as I seriously don't want to sit just there. Haha. So I was walking around most of the times but of course still did my primary job which was to take care of the registration.

During the midst of registration, that sickening girl wanted to gather all the captains for a safety breifing. But... She talked as if she is going to scold them. Tsk tsk tsk. How can she speaked in this kind of tone? Many went to feedback at her and again she said she know. Faint.

So the MCs managed to settle their side. However, they left a peiece of paper which contains a paragraph which they annouced as and when to say something about this event lying around. And the words were hand written. Insiders will know they came up with this last minute (it's okay) but the piece of paper will let others know that this is just a disorganized event and we were like so screwed up.

That piece of paper kept appearing in front of my eyes. But in the end I still did not do anything about it as the head doesn't care about it and why should me?

Luckily each game took lesser than 10 minutes which we estimated for and we managed to break for lunch and even ended earlier. So things were still considered smoothly.

Okay, the best part was I need to be inside the Great Eastern team to help them play! However unwilling I am, I know I need to be in. The only reason is they were our sponsor. So fine. The feeling was okay just that the caffeine effect combined with my tiredness made myself so lost. And their shirt also not very nice. Haha.

Okay la. Thinking back all these stuff everything was okay just that it is HER again..

21st June 2011, 12am

Seriously you just fuck man. I will never actually leave vulgur words in any written form. But I am really KNN DL because of YOU!

You emailed me the invoice given by VAS and just throw to me settle. Do you actually know how the process is being done at this moment?!!

I can't do anything to claim from the money collected from participants you know? All the money paid out is all by me and others. Invoices are already here and I still can't do anything to them!

You just throw me this and that's it. Your job is simple isn't it? Assign here and there but you have no idea on how things should be going. Really thanks man. I am seriously considering of backing out of the xlb buffet, pulling 2 persons out with me if i'm not going. As because of YOU again, they rather not join than staying in there, with YOU around.

17th June 2011-Friday's Volleyball

I was expecting Eugene (at least) to reach school by 6 to 630pm as I think he will be punctual or rather the first few to reach for this week's volleyball. But in the end, both Si Jia and Eugene came at only 7pm as Si Jia got Eugene to fetch her but Si Jia herself was late. I was like, its YOU again.

When I reached at 6pm, Joel was there already. No choice, talked to him before Lester and to me, the bogus vice project director of Volleyfest'2011 reached. So like 630pm, only the 4 of us.

Lucky I met Joel yesterday, as he told me that the last Volleyfest in 2009, they had exactly the same problem with Great Eastern like us now. And, the shocking thing was GE still came down to put a booth as arranged and lastly, refused to sign the contract after the event saying that its useless to sign the contract already since the event was over.

According to Joel, they got what they wanted during the event i.e. they got the participants' details. Quoting what Dennis said, they use these details to do the unorthodox stuff like spamming your emails and calling you. So yucks!

I let Si Jia know about all these sometime during the volleyball session and now then she is getting worried. She even wanted to take over from Dennis the liaising with Great Eastern. I was like, this is useless lor as of NOW. Because Dennis's special sem is ending on Monday. So like now then you know its urgent. Like I said before, by the time you realised its urgent, alot of things would be too late. Nevertheless, we will just need to endure this weekend and wait for Dennis.

The issue with GE now is they say that the contract is very pro-NUS, asking for non-NUS fulfilment. None of us could comprehend what the David was meaning. Maybe Dennis is, but he's too busy to deal with it. So just for Dennis.

She told Eugene about all these stuff at the end of the volleyball session. And she even added that she hoped Eugene would be free so that she got ahmad. Before telling Eugene she already told me she hoped that Eugene is free. I know we need Eugene to be around for this discussion as he is one of the core member in the committee and definitely able to help us but not to the extend of being ahmad.

You must have not noticed that Eugene sometimes do complain about his mileage. And GE at Changi is not that inaccessible. If the need of travelling down with bus is necessary, just do it in this kind of circumstances now. We cannot afford to think of having that bit of comfort as the main thing is getting the contract signed before the event starts.

Elson made a very good point about this GE issue. Si Jia commented that if they don't sign the contract, we will not allow them to play in court and set up the booth. But the things is we don't get the money as pointed out by Elson. We need that money to survive for this Volleyfest!

Seriously you have not made any good suggestions so far...

Oh ya. Another thing to add on. You showed me the contract with GE. Inside, there's one term stating that GE logo would be on "Certificate of Participation" of Volleyfest. Where the hell when we have this? I looked at her, she blinked her eye and gave me a blur look. So I asked her who's doing this? Obviously no idea right? And she said at most she's gonna do it. I was sitting with Ting Ting sometime and so I casually asked her about this. She told me that Si Jia is going to design it. But I think that she's not gonna make it and asked Ting to help supervise in the design since she is some sort of already under the designing department.

2nd Matter-XLB Buffet after Volleyfest

Yng Tng mentioned about this and she recalled she needed to collect S$10 deposit from those who are going. She asked who is going for this and only Eugene and Yingpeng put up their hand. I didn't. Because seriously i'm having second thoughts of it. If I go, I will ask Wee Hoe and Choon Yew to stick around me to prevent her from coming too close to me. Haha! As these are the persons that she got problems with. Hahaha.

At the end of volleyball, I think she did not managed to collect any S$10 from ANYONE. When she was trying to collect the deposit from Elson, Elson replied her:"Huh?! 要给钱的?". Haha! As she told Elson its a 庆功宴 so Elson said that this kind of celebration should be paid by the boss. And so we continue to joke that we will go other places and we still fork out money! Haha! Remembering that Eugene once joked also that if need to treat us, he will go with Si Jia only.

Adding on...

We all, except for her, think that the deposit could be paid by you first then we pay you. Its easier right? But she did not think likewise. So Eugene asked her if she has got enough money. I think she has the money lor. She already signed with MOE, receiving money and don't think her family is that poor also. So why she cannot pay first?

She replied, softly but I could still hear, saying that "not really enough money". I didn't really care because all the stuff she has got me into. Though still quite surprised. Haha.

3rd Matter-Vice Project Director

I really don't like to mention his name for so many reasons. First, when he reached with Lester at about 630pm, he talked to me. He said "辛苦了" about the fbt shirt printing. Normal reply is of course "Sure, no problem". But in my heart is of course you can just say this as you are not the one doing it. And you like this job damn lots because you can sit there doing nothing, just seeing what we are doing.

You didn't reply me sms nor email with regards to the fbt shirt design before or after the matter was resolved. Yesterday you told me it was because your attachment place has no internet connection and so you couldn't reply my email. So what about sms? At least you could have told me in the sms at that moment saying that you cannot reply lor. But you didn't. And now you are trying to explain why. Its of no use now. You are already a bogus vice project director to me. You sitting in that position is just retarded.

You also did not help Si Jia much as of what I know. You are like only contactable during school term and disappear during school holidays. You have to make known that you are having attachment. Even if you are busy, at least late reply please. You just reply some of my emails and that's it. Nothing else more.

Secondly, your volleyball playing style is still very basketball style. Its like your improvement compared to most of the guys is slow. Lester and me playing opposite of you nearly died running because of your digging. A lot of times the way to receive (bad and good ones) can be learnt just by viewing.

Lucky you are in the club's committee. If not I don't know how I'm going to survive.

Vfest'11 11th June 2011

As time goes by, I just keep finding out more and more of your irresponsibility actions.

The logistic list created and submitted to you, you didn't really bother to understand what are the items are and what are they used for. I am actually quite afraid of the situation again whereby you would said " Oh shit. I didn't know they are referring to this." or "Oh shit. I forgot about it." etc. And you need others to help you clear your dirty backside again.

In addition, I will be definately one of the persons cleaning your backside for you, yourself.

As a friend, I don't mind helping out but helping out also has to assess the situation. I feel that no matter how big or how small the matter is, as long as it is relevant to the event, you should know what is happening. Yes, you trust that person in charge but you still got to ensure the progress and ask to concern about it. But seriously, you only wait till you kan chiong then you keep spaming the person with calls, emails and sms to ask about it. This is an event. By the time you realised that something is wrong, it might be too late.

8th June 2011-Vfest'11

There are so many things needed to be pushed for this event at this moment. 2nd referee issue, time constraint on 1st day of event, fbt t-shirt printing and requested yesterday night, vfest budget.

The request I only saw it this morning when I reached the office. It was too late to send her immediately and so notified her that I will send it when I reached home after work. However, mum worked late and so I gotta buy dinner for all. I reached home 7 minutes before 8pm. Felt energy drained and so sat on sofa watching tv until 845pm and forced myself to go and bathe so as to catch 9pm show on SCV, VV drama channel.

Suddenly recalled need to send her the budget, so on my computer immediately after I showered and quickly edited some parts and sent it to her. Thought that she just wanna see it to keep track of the earnings so didn't care much while editing.

Then she replied commenting here and there in a tone whereby I feel that she wasn't happy. As usual, when your tone isn't good, my reply will not be as friendly as well. Below is the convo.

"hey xiaoyue,

just some notices for you regarding budget. the referee cost is $360 for both days for only 1 referee. we'll get our own ppl to be the second referee and linesman. secondly, why is the cost of the balls $0? if it's to be absorbed by ourselves, then remove it from the budget bcos everything in the budget needs to be accounted to ky:) and the price of the tees. its $10 for 230 pieces right? but the cost is above $2300. if it's due to 7% gst, please state it. just some notes for you, so please edit the budget accordingly. thanks:)

cheers,
jia:)

-END-

You only mentioned just send you the most recent edited buget and fullstop. No requirements from YOU. How I know you want a proper one when previously your Assistant project director (who is almost equal to a nobody) ask for the same thing as well? His purpose was just to see it.

From this event I find out alot of things about you. As the project director yourself, you don't oversee ALL the things yourself and you just let your subordinates do it. Not all people are as 细心 as me who will check all stuff before sending out emails etc.

To quote some examples, marketing people previously did not change the link of vfest'09 to vfest'11. And so sponsors who may want to know more about the event go and click the link and realised its 2009 event. Steady right? It was me who found it and its only until the marketing people has sent out so MANY emails already.

The Vfest logo is 2010 and you also never notice it. You send the medal and banner design to me asking me for comments and you yourself has no comments at all. As you bascially just reiterated what I said to the designer. It is like you don't feel doing anything and outsource these to me.

All these just make me feel that you are not putting in 100% of your heart into this event. Don't you feel that this is the 1st event that you are in charge of and you should do it nicely? You claimed that you are very busy when its actually the result of your own decisions. You took up some household-based job, dance class, going for beach and special semester. If you can't cope, drop them please. Its not always able to get the best of both worlds.

For this event, I know that meetings on Fridays before volleyball session is inevitable, I took a part-time job, working on tuesdays to thursdays only. Also for me to rest on other days as well. As for you? You should know that you have alot to handle for this event so don't make urself so occupied la!

Dennis is so busy with his special semester and you still let him continue to handle GE's problems like contract, dilvulging participants' contact and etc and fbt printing. And you kept complaining that Dennis's replies were so late. You should have assigned another person to take over if you need a faster reply! And if you don't feel like taking them up again. I seriously don't know whether you actually know the printing of shirts is KNN rush and it has monetary issues. You simply just leave it to me.

You need people to share your problems its the same for the people who shared your problems. They also need others to share their problems okay. Just like me. But so far I have not received any care and concern from you. I think Dennis too.

Elson is having his fyp and so you said you don't want to touch the publicity department. Then who's left? Again me, eugene and wee hoe? The you say marketing department done alot too. Then seriously left who?

Me and me and me right? I feel like a half project director seriously. The name in place assistant project director bascially just do not exists. He is a bogus one. And he just MIA.

Email sent 2 days ago and this bogus vice PD just replied. Slow.

On payment day itself

It was so long ago set to be 3rd of June and you like 2-3 days ago sending out email asking for helpers. Wee Hoe also complained why never inform earlier. This was in my mind one week before the payment day but i'm just waiting for YOU.

You got me no helpers, created an inaccurate and lousy format checklist. Did I say anything? You want stuff that is done up to standard but you never say. Then feedback to us. What about us? You basically like throw us in the water and ask us to swim ourselves.

Simply, your effort is just not there. You did not think through a lot of things from what I have seen.

Your email on the edited fixture, I am not going to care and you settle it yourself. You only sent to 4 persons. You think others can't help? People like wee hoe? He may have some ideas to resolve the problems. But becasue you had a commotion with him not long ago so you didn't ask him. :)

22nd May 2011

This was my THIRD time telling YOU that I can only beach on sat and suggested that if you don't want to come down on saturday after your dance class you can just go on Sunday's beach session as now it's not close to the competition yet. You can train on your own like just continue to play and keeping the beach feel with you. When the date is nearer, then we need you to come on saturday to train as a team.

You replied: "Wth. Liddat u win le lo. Seriously unhappy with this arrangement but as you wish." Hey, your attitude wasn't good at all okay. Its the THIRD time I'm telling you this and you were still unhappy about it.

Please, there's nothing much to be unhappy about as I really can't play on Sunday. You attitude me I also attitude you lor. I willingly sacrifice myself to withdraw but you said I blackmail you. And said "if unhappy we all can don't play". If don't want play lagi best lor. You think I want to stick to you meh?

YOU YOURSELF stick to me lor, SELF-ACKNOWLEDGE that we come as a PACKAGE. You think we really come as a package meh?

You just need someone who can clean your buttock for you if you can't get any balls. Just like the Friday you were in 前排 but it was me in the 后排 who went to help to receive YOUR 前排球.

You even said that my situation on Sunday is the same as your situation on Saturday.

Hey Hello!!! You are able to reach the beach at about 5pm but I end my tuition at 5pm OKAY! What same? I already put in effort to come out with this arrangement and WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?

You just keep complaining here and there and gave me this kind of attitude. I DON"T DESERVE THIS lor.

I don't voice out my unhappiness because sometimes things are like so small, its okay not to be mentioned. But doesn't mean you can ride yourself over me, taking advantage of my kindness and EVEN SCOLD ME BACK!

I toned down because I know you will not be able to handle this, all because your attitude or YOU, is just like this. You will cry, be sad, but just not solving the problem. And as if you are the only one making ALOT of sacrifice and not OTHERS. My whole weekend will be burnt lor. I am training hard, or rather making myself and others improve but you are just there enjoying yourself TOTALLY. I mean while I enjoy myself, I also learn and also coming up with plans on how can we play as a team.

This reminded me of something you mentioned on Saturday. You CONFESS that you don't really like to play with us sometimes as you feel very stress. Simple reason, you just never improve! You actually set a bad example to others already unknowingly. You anyhow throw the ball as a start to others and dig the ball so low.

You anyhow throw the ball to others and still expect the more pros one to hit back a relatively good ball. PLEASE LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I even rem you complained my ball has no 点 to hit. You all dig the ball until so LOUSY lor! I can hit back is already very good okay! And I am always running around, hitting the ball so nice back to you all, YOU ALL JUST TAKE IT FOR GRANTED!

My standard has been improving but how about your standard? I think you all ONLY learn the 'seh' but not the SKILLS! Probably don't understand that the skills actually contribute to the 'seh' and not the other way round!

I noticed that you and Cindy copy me to look at opposite court, copy my leg actions before serving the ball. Hello, all these movements are with a reason!

I look at opposite court is looking for any weak points for me to aim so to gain points for my team and I CAN serve the ball there. You all just look and serve anyhow. I have the leg action is because it gives me the momentum/起步 to serve the ball. But you all just did it to show that you are pro!

I don't claim or recognise myself as pro so always treasure the ball I have to serve, receive and spike.

Okay, I think I have complained enough here. Just to end off, we ended this small war; and you telling me that somehow you think we love each other too much to be willing to compromise.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I just feel that a commotion in unnecessary, I don't like fights, raising my voice as I think it just really waste my energy and spoil my mood. YOU better don't become another person WITHOUT any self-awareness.

17th April 2011

Okay.. Something relative serious happened today. At about 1 plus pm, i received my sis's call. She was crying and telling me not to go over her house yet because she needed to clear up the mess in her house. I asked what happened. She replied saying that Tony had diritied the whole sofa with his noodle. I was shocked, not really knowing what to do and I just said okay. Until my mum and I heard shoutings again, then we know something had really happened. My mum immediately took the keys and went over. I tagged along. When we were at the doorstep, my sis shouted for my mum desparately. And the moment we stepped into the house, the first look was noodles were really spreaded on sofa and the floor. Upon second look, I saw my sis's shoulder had some noodles as well. And she was really crying terribly. I have not seen her crying so badly before. Really. My heart broke.

I did not know what happened, but only know that once a mess is being created, there needs to be someone to clear up. And the person to clear up was not the person created the mess. Seriously unfair. I wanted to go and scold him that no matter how angry you are, you should not waste the noodles and even dirtied the floor, sofa, walls and human.

I hold myself back as I do not know what happened exactly so its not for me to interfere yet. Its dinner time and he refused to have the dinner bought for him. My sis came over for dinner; then I know she wasn't hurt by the incident during afternoon and whatever happened seem to have no cause, or rather, no valid reason. We speculated he was probably upset about the fact that my sister did not buy dinner for him and he got to cook instant noodle for himself. But he could have waited for it as my sister was already prepared to go down. In addition, he did not stressed that he was reaching home and hurry my sister to buy. 2nd issue was he did not bathed (dirty) and my sister did not want him to touch him. So, quarrel again. All these matter added up and triggered by my sister for throwing his mac book. I did not know how big the damage was or how did my sister throw the mac book, I only know that my sister had cried until so terribly that he has hurt her deeply. During the speculation, I took the initiative to asked him has anything happened outside, at work etc that he has to show temper when he's back. He just replied it was all because of my sister's attitude. Then I asked again if it just because of the attitude? He replied 'good night'. He didn't say anything and so how are we supposed to know? If he's unhappy about not buying dinner for him, its a small matter what. Or can't you depend on yourself? Really omg. My mum and sister insisted on calling to his brother to complain. I disagree to this resort unless we were unable to resolve. But, I couldn't stop my sister for doing that, so she actually called and talked for about an hour. His brother also couldn't figure out what has happened exactly to him. Its like, you don't open people won't know. If you don't want people to know, then don't show your temper and swallow EVERYTHING. Oh ya, the sms actually continues. I was fed up that he replied 'good night' when he don't feel like talking about it. See, again, he don't want to say anything. How to help sia? Nvm, I got angry and replied that I will call police if its get too noisy. He encouraged me to call before he's going to leave. I said no, only after 11pm that we have the right to call as its disturbing others resting. And I encouraged him back to call the police. On the condition that if wants to embarrased himself. Then I also replied saying that I only know my sister was terribly hurt by him. After about 20 minutes, my sister came over for awhile and told us that he finished dinner already. In a way my sms works? Nevertheless, he most probably thought through a bit of things. This whole matter wasted my whole Sunday and I did not touch my books at all..So it seems to be good that you have your siblings or someone close living near you. But actually, now all of us have to care about TWO families' matter. :)

大姐去中国的第一天

She board the flight to China at around 830am I guess? She checked in about 645am. I did not have any energy to say a nice bye to her this morning.. Sent her a sms to her when I got out of the house and after 2 replies she got on the aeroplane liao.. Quite shock to hear this morning that she does not feel excited nor feel good about this trip but already decided to go so just went ahead. Now I got home, checked my email and went online but she never send any email neither on MSN. Don't know what time she will be online and see the email. Not sure if she has called back to report that she has landed on China, Beijing. I was online until just now, 1225am. But she never online. So how is she doing ar? She better reply us!

Follow Up...

Oh.. Its 720pm now! Getting closer to 730pm! I guess I should remember the reason behind this post? Or rather remembering the event?

I believe the new tutor has reached and most of the students have reached the centre as well. So my unglam story will SPREAD and almost everyone in the centre will know as I know she's that kind of person that will verbal diarrhoea to anyone she can get.

I guess by looking the way I phrase my sentences should divulge my mood at this point of time? So in a way I have let down the matter, moving on... All credits go to Sara! Meeting up with her is always a pleasure thing, and I have learnt a new term from her! Hahaha. That is 'verbal diarrhoea".

I seriously need a person to tell me or analyze the situation that I was in about whether the way I do things or behave, or my attitude etc in this matter. And Sara IS the person came in time.

I really feel that I am lost somehow because of this matter, as I have gotten lots of feedbacks and comments about myself. I would say its a good thing as it allow me to grow up faster.

Looking at things optimisticcally should be the way right? Rather than live unhappy everyday, live life to the fullest and in a happy way! So I should be correct to be the way I am now. Hehe.

Really thank you Sara! Love you lots! Jia you for your degree!

End of Story? I hope so..

Okay. Finally this story is coming to an end. But will it be a start to another event? I hope not.

I went down to the tuition centre to sort out some administrative stuff to handle over my job. Initially the attitude was like normal, talking a little. But when I started to explain the paper work, she started to get angry as well.

As I revealed one by one of the untouched materials (total there are 4 stacks), she got madder and madder. She said that "Why do you want to print the next topic when you have not even finish one? You think I am a printing company is it?" in a very furious tone.

I mean I could have clear those bad log if I am able to stay with them for a year. I will not leave those untouched teaching materials behind when I requested it. But I know that her mood was bloody boiling and so throughout her scoldings, I kept mum. I have the thinking of just letting her to scold me. In a way I am answerable to myself that I had at least taught the students what they required previously. In addition, I understand that she is taking up all these shit left by me so I did not have the right to say anything. So I just let her vent her unhappiness out.

I wasn't feeling very unhappy or even much disturbed after her lecture. In fact, I am glad that I have left that place, but it was my first time leaving a working place leaving such a bad impression behind. I am just disappointed by myself. But all these wasn't under my control!

She said that I need to hand her the topics notes and worksheet once I have gone through. But hello, you didn't tell me! And when I told her there are mistakes in the questions she said highlight the mistakes in red and she will look through it and make the changes.

Not only this, she asked my why are there extra copies? She claimed that she always printed exactly. Hey hey, are u sure u did not make any mistakes at all? I made, I admit and I deserve comments/lectures from you. But now for those I didn't, I took it up too.

I suddenly felt lost. In a way what is my bottomline in enduring such stuff and what kind of person I am actually? The way I do things etc. It set me thinking. And I even felt nothing even she shouted at me:"You are terrible!".

I really couldn't comprehend and I want to post it now so that I am able to see what I was experiencing actually after a talk with sara tomorrow. Hope she is able to help me!

23rd Feb 2011

Something happened yesterday and I feel uneasy even up till now.



The uneasiness actually started from 21st February, 2011, Monday 8.16pm when my tution boss called. She talked about the issue again, and only up till yesterday when I met her, had a face-to-face chat then I know what she wanted all along. She wanted an appologize from me.


I knew it only when she told me, repeated at least twice. She even brought up an example of another tutor saying that that tutor appologized. So basically she just needs that 'Sorry'!


I do not understand why she needs that appologize, but I just knew she wanted and needed it so I said it.

I do not like the fact that she brought up another example just to show that I need to do the same. In addition, she said that she could not communicate with me as we do not share or have the same consensus. I disagree.

Firstly, I do not think that I am hard to communicate when I am already easy-going, I won't say I am very easy-going. Secondly, when she told me that I should not have disclosed that, I have stopped keeping in contact with her clients and even refrained myself from connecting to her clients on facebook. She told me that she does not want to hear all these.

So I appologized, she accepted it, but i do not know if she would replace me with another tutor. I even broke down as usual, even predicted myself to have broken down and getting a scolding. To be frank, initially I tried turning down this assignment but she kept me. So I have the thinking right from the start:"I am just waiting for you to sack me.".

However, that is not applicable to this situation as I did not poached any of her clients or do anything unethical. I just want her to believe me that I will not, ever, to her clients.

One more point from yesterday conversation. Some of the clients' parents called and complained that the clients were not doing anything for the past 2 lessons excluding the one this week, neglecting them. I was shocked. Giving the students a chance to slack, helping the other weaker students and reinforcing their knowledge during these times they did not appreciate. Fine enough, they are just preaching what they had said.

I did not talk to anyone about this matter; finding no one suitable to hear my problem as some are busy and some are not that close yet. I feel much better now after typing all these, as if I have talked to someone. Glad that I have kept this blog on, a way for me to relieve my problems and stress.

I have signed up another tution assignment; the same coordinator is handling this assignment. I just hoped that she will not bad-mouth me, so as to increase my chance of getting the new assignment. Let me hope... God bless me please.