我生气了!

Oh.. Today small small thing happen ar.. Haha...

Today was the last lab session for AIA. I guess none of us will expect it to be so so slack. I think the lab session is just to let us experience Fourier Transform Infared Spectroscopy (FTIR).

I found the lab session to be boring as there is nothing for us to do *except for us to play*. Haha.. So I decided to take out lyrics of songs that I have wanted to practise. Some songs I really like it and that I want to learn it well, so that next time can sing when I go for k. One song is to sing to kai siang! Haha. That song for kai siang is "Lips of an Angel'. I heard from Yuying that he would always play this song in exxon mobil everyday without fail for a period of time. So I wanna ka jiao him!!! Haha..

I actually printed out the lyrics so that its easier for reference whenever I am free or too bored with.

So when i was holding the paper (lyrics) in my hands, people anti me singing (haha) tried to stopped me. Then, not long after, the paper i was holding onto tore.

My thinking at that split second was: "I just want to practise that's all, and I have no intention in singing OUT LOUD. Why do my paper have to be torn!!!!!!!! And that the paper is not recycled paper (rough paper) lor.. I used a NEW paper...".

I nearly nearly cried out. My eyes at that moment were already one-third filled with tears and my face turned red. So to avoid that, I walked out of the laboratory to cry out or cool myself down in the toilet.

But when I reached the toilet, there were some girls then too paiseh to let my emotions out. So, i kept my tears back. Also on second thought, it's not worth crying over a torn paper and the tearing of the paper is an accident, nobody expects that to happen. Also, only me i guess that treat a piece of paper so important.

So why be angry over such a small thing that might 破坏our friendship? Not worth it right? *Yeah* Haha..

So i was playing my handphone game in the cubicle, I didn't picked up kai siang's call as I don't know what to say to him at that point of time, I heard all the shoutings that asked me to come out. Hahahahaha....

When i got back into the lab, I don't feel like talking for whatever reason(s) which I don't know myself also. Maybe it is because that I need time to recover after something happened. I was really feeling a bit down should be because I'm tired..: I chiong out of my hosue today, I nearly unable to board my 23 early in the morning as I didn't keep a lookout for it; and lastly lastly, its b'cuz of AIA report....

I really appreciate all those who came out to look for me. At the same time I am sorry that I have made some of you to be worried.. But it's now ALL OVER!!!

Don't worry.. 我没有放在心上. Really... I know I need to have guy's thinking: do not remember such a small thing...

J.U.D.Y 周定维-我不会唱歌

Whoo!!! 周定纬真的是帅的咯!!!!! *Screams!!!!!***
Haha...

I already like (not that kind of love) him when I listened to his 我不会唱歌. And then subsequently i saw him on TV, One million Star programme where he started his singing career.

He was the only participant in 星光一帮 that can dance. So maybe that's why why he is quite 突出.

Today he finally able to sing in 百万大歌星!!!! WHoo!!! Shiok shiok shiok... Haha.. Really enjoyed his performance and i like him more and more... Whoo!!! He really can dance, his performance was great, though he really can't sing as well as those 杨宗伟 etc.

He is actually quite attractive and I actually was thinking it would be so great if he were to be my boyfriend. Can dance, can sing with all his heart. Also, he actually came prepared. He hand written the songs lyrics to remember them. And this helped him! He managed to clear 8 rounds before ending in the 9th round.

This proved that he is a determined and hard-working guy, and i believe that he is a decent guy too... So... If i can get a boyfriend like him, hmm.. I would really be sastified. Haha...

But of course this is impossible, juz dreaming for awhile. Haha...

I have attached his song, not his new EP song, onto my blog. Listen to it ba! I have also put the lyrics below. So ENJOY!!!

周定纬 - 我不会唱歌

Lyrics....

Yeah.. This is J.U.D.Y. 2007
H.I.M Production....

灯光点亮千万声的呐喊
布幕拉开了热闹的开场
没有人知道
我屏住了呼吸抑制紧张

谁都说这是他们的梦想
在台上一分钟也是奢望没有人相信
今天晚上竟然换我上场

观众焦急的等待
下一个节目又会是哪个天王天后天团
我可以猜到我的下场
观众会去上厕所记者会去吃便当
可是 我还是愿意
拿出我的诚意让你们知道我做了多少努力
虽然 我不是很会唱
可是 我愿意把我的一切拿给大家分享

都说我不会唱歌
我的嗓音没有那么独特
但我保持一份自信
保留我的个性你们说我还行不行

别说我不会唱歌
我的声音就算没有特色
可是我还有份热情
要让你们开心
你们说我还行不行

我的声音听来有些孤单
对抗那一千分贝的冷淡
多少人在乎 这是我多么重要的夜晚

时间还剩下最后一分半
能不能来得及让你鼓掌 我舞步不乱
再怎么样也要漂亮地唱完

观众焦急的等待
下一个节目又会是哪个天王天后天团
我可以猜到我的下场
观众会去上厕所记者会去吃便当
可是 我还是愿意
拿出我的诚意让你们知道我做了多少努力
虽然 我不是很会唱 可是
我愿意把我的一切拿给大家分享

都说我不会唱歌 我的嗓音没有那么独特
但我保持一份自信
保留我的个性你们说我还行不行

别说我不会唱歌 我的声音就算没有特色
可是我还有份热情 要让你们开心
你们说我还行不行

都说我不会唱歌 我的嗓音没有那么独特
但我保持一份自信 保留我的个性你们说我还行不行
别说我不会唱歌 我的声音就算没有特色可是我还有份热情 要让你们开心你们说我还行不行

22 November 2008

Hm.. Have been busy with all my AIA stuff. But i guess not as busy as the IWT people? Haha. See yy and sara always staying back late to do their PBL, pity them. =)

AIA really made my mood has drastic changes. I can be very very happy and marcos they all would asked 'how many years have i not laughed?'. Haha. The next moment i can then become very stressed up by the project as afraid unable to get good results and then lousy marks.

Luckily, so far things have been not bad so far though there were transition periods which I really want to cry it out!!! But ENDURE! AIA will be over soon. and YEAH! Haha...

Later at night, or Sunday morning, my second sister will come back from Japan! Whoo! And i will be going to the airport to welcome her back. Haha.. Her boyfriend i don't think he is going, so going to help my sister out.

This afternoon i think about 4pm, my sister called from Japan la! Juz to tell me i MUST go and help her to carry her luggage. Haha. I think she really bought alot of stuff.

Today my ELDEST sister went to get her wisdom tooth plucked out. Oh! She is really in pain. She cannot talk properly, and gave me a shock this morning when she came home. She was wearing a mask and her sunglasses. Dots la! She is like some people who is damn scared to get infected. But her mouth was like could not close properly and i guess slight swollen of her face.

i hope i will not be like her; in such a great pain. =) I really pitied her but could not do much and seeing her sleeping is my biggest 安慰 as i think sleeping can help her to forget her jaw pain.

Hm.. Some updates about the 'unhappy' stuff.

I don't understand why that generation thought that making changes to the statement will have no impact on the person who gave it. I really don't understand. Or the scenes shown in drama serials were untrue?

I believe that I am right in anyway.

No much progress for this 'unhappy' stuff. None of us were informed about this. I do not think really much and have been focusing on my studies. But i realised my attitude towards him have changed, and rather, changed permanently.

Cuz he is still like, that way he talks to us, his behaviour and thinking are all still the same. The rest keep saying he is changing and blah blah blah. I do not believe, and i meant it. The way he talks is always irritating to me and now, if he just signal SLIGHT unhappiness whether is it for real, I will just avoid it if possible, to prevent myself from being in that unwanted situation again.

17 November 2008

Hmm... I find that I have come across many sad stories recently...

One is a TV programme, show on Channel 8 every Monday, 8pm. This programme shows some less fortunate people living in Singapore which like until now, all the stories are very touching and I never fail to cry every week because of this.

At the same, it also let me realise how fortunate I am though many unwanted, unhappy stuffs still happen. But from today's episode, I have found a sentence which I believe its true: 认命，但不认输。

Another sad story is again from Channlel 8, but this time is a drama serial, 不凡的爱. Its about AIDS, which is good as i believe the majority do not know how's the life of a HIV positive person. This actually can act as a reminder to all the guys out there who have to sastify their needs in geylang area or whatever when the urge comes.

I don't deny the fact that there are indeed some girls seeking fun in this area also, but it seems that all the stories of AIDS are more on the guy side. Haha... So to both sides la hor... Haha..

Having been exposed to all these, I am more 清醒 about the way to live and the kind of life I want myself to be in. Hope everyone can do the same too. =)

MaNy...

Let me talk about some funny, happy stuff.

On Monday, the 3rd November 2008, my two very good female friends and me wore the SAME black Polo-T from Giodarno UNKOWINGLY!!! Haha..

Really surprised as all i can say, this is 默契!!! Something which don't have to say anything, juz do the same thing. Haha...

This is the photo that we took! In the past sara and me would wear the same shirt. Now, there is Yuying to join us! Haha!! Welcome YY!! Haha...

Today, 6 November 2008, a Thursday, Nathaniel did something in the Inorganic Chemistry Lab which was really hilarious.

He actually turned into a temporary plumber; the Chemical Reaction Engineering (CRE) Practical 1 requires the use of magnetic stirrer which Nat accidently washed down the sink. So, he acutally opened up the 'thing' (I don't know what's that called) and retrieved the magnetic stirrer. This was like, Woah Lao! Haha... I should have taken out my phone and take pictures of it!!!

When the 'thing' was about to open, water/liquid flowed down like fast. Haha! All these were contained in some beakers and the magnetic stirrer did came out! The magnetic stirrer even had some mercury (according to the guys) attached to it. Yucks! Really dirty lor. Haha...

Dr Jiang Li was also a bit entertained by us. Haha. Cuz Marcos said something :"先生，我的水管有问题。" in a female and 'hiao' tone la... Really Lolx....

Now... Unhappy stuff...

On the same Monday, my right eye twitched. This means bad thing(s) will happen. And on Tuesday morning, something really happened.

I really wished I had not woken up at 5am on Tuesday morning to be in time witnessing something. I was upset, at the same time facing something very cruel. I can't stop myself from crying when I heard that sentence. But that sentence was really true and has made myself mentally prepared for what is to be coming.

After everything was put to a halt, I was surprised by myself that I did not let this event occupied my mind. This is good as I won't want this event to affect my studies when I had only left a semester to go.

But also cannot say I didn't think of it also, just not facing it bracely enough and really don't want to think about it! It's so irritating!

Today... Now! My right eye is twiching again. Shi te liao lor. Don't know what's coming again. Sianx. This morning I was already emotionally affected by the same event again and now, maybe later, will have to be upset another time.

Whatever happened this morning about the event was something which was totally wrong, not for me. This should not have done as it would be a serious case in the eyes of somebody.

I suddenly thought of how this event will go on at about 8 pm when I was watching TV programme. And I have set my mind to carry out what I foresee. Cuz I feel that even if this event is called to an end, another event will still affect us. Also, relatives of older generation do not understand our situation and are looking things at the surface. They thought this time round is so simple to be settled. The fact is, N, O, NO! In general, I think that they are making things worse.

So why not prevent another event that would even get more serious than this time and which will upset us again? As this case (has not end yet), would put a scar on everyone of us, and this scar could not possibly be healed even after 10 years; the actual feelings and thinking at this point of time will just be forgotten.