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On the past Monday, I treated her badly as a friend initally for the day. As I remembered the hurt that i had becasue of her. But I still toned down as she took the initiative to send me sms when I was late for lecture. She still regards me as a more than normal friend.

When the 2nd lecture break comes, she wanted to photocopy notes again. We went to the toilet but I wanted to look for Si Jia so leave her alone to Co-op. I seemed harsh on my tone but I was tired on the other hand.

To her she thinks that I am really tired so do not have the mood to joke or laugh. But in fact, it is because I bear some grudges against her. Nevertheless, I am fine with her after some time.

On the same day, as usual, I took xiao bai's car back. He told me our job is done and the rest is up to them to continue. There's a question in my head. Did someone told him to say that or is he really thinking that way? Well, though i'm really curious but i believe xiao bai won't tell me the truth in order to protect his friend. So, no point asking.

XIAOYUE!! Don't think abt it anymore already! Its none of your business!!!! Yes, this is what i have been telling myself. And hopefully I will be able to forget this soon. Mug Mug and mug!!!

In addition, there's another shocking news. I should be more worried in the people affected by this news rather than other unneccesary stuff.

10th April 2009

I guess my another '好心' is not being appreciated. Or rather the things I did were not of acceptance to certain people. I felt like I was reprimanded for spoiling things. I was DU LAN!

Cause I merely wanted to know more (kei-po) about their status from a girl's point of view. Just like the way girls have been sharing those sweet stuffs with their girlfriends. Therefore, I did not expect her to be that discreet about it and not even telling me this. Oh well, especially when she still mentioned to me "不愧是我的好朋友". I am utterly disappointed.

Her 'attractor' defended her, or rather defends her, depends on how long this relationship can last, by saying she's not that open to this kind of things. I can also feel about her being not so open in discussing these stuffs, but really just did not expect her not to say anything. And now, her 'attractor' is being embarrassed and so I was being reprimanded. Thanks to her lor.

And if lets say when her 'attractor' confess to her, she better don't come and ask me if he is worth accepting! This is my thinking now but I don't think I will be able to do that by then. But it really has to depend how the situation develops.

I was really DL by him lor. The way he told me and in a way reminding me not to mention anything between them. I am not that kpo if both of them don't want to say. I just thought I could understand or help to share as her female friend. Never did I expect him to tell me not to ask!!!

It's really best liao lor. And it is really 日就见人心。I am a bit saddened by this in fact. My tears gonna to be unbearable and will flow out unstoppable sooner or later if I fail to cool down.

We manage to resolve this problem in fact, but as a girl, of course will remember being reprimanded for such stuffs especially. And now my MSN replies are short and open-ended. He can choose to continues or not. Its up to him. I have my lab report to finish and I don't wish to continue in that topic as I feel that its really out of my business already unless I am being requested for to help out.

7th March 2010

I guess I'm really random for posting this post. haha. But my waist is aching like hell! Due to the volleyball session on 5th March (Friday). That is the first time for me playing so many sets as setter!!! Remarkable man. I guess I played 6 games as setter. Haha. But my setting IS not good at all. I feel so sorry for my spikers and sub-set!!! Nevertheless, I enjoyed!!! Yeah!! Haha..

It has been so long since I played until so shiok and happy at the same time. All thanks to all my volleyball mates!!!

The work on Saturday made my aches worst. Still got so many stock came even. But its all over. I'm now recuperating. Haha. Having a piece of Salonpas on my back now. Hehe.

Shall post whenever I feel like. =)

突然觉醒

I need to thank someone today for making me realise the ultimate reason why I have not been into a relationship after so long.

I'm reporting work @ 7pm, but still blogging @ 641pm. This shows that this reason is of huge importance. I think it isn't really nice to disclose his name as it would be very complicated if anyone who knows what's going on see this.

He told me he's afraid if 'they' can't be friends. I am suddenly awaken by this sentence which expresses what I have been afraid of and so avoiding many things. Thanks to him, I recalled my fear. And so I should brave up if necessary. =)

17 Dec 2009

Oh yes! Finally had the patience to blog. The truth is I can't sleep at this hour. Haha. I guess now I really have to wait till after 3 am before I could sleep. Its all due to the night shifts and clubbing. Haha.

Today I did spring cleaning for my bedroom and found so much of lizard's shit! Reall is oh my 天. Haha. The amount is more than what my mum has been cleaning. So I guess I have made that corner to clean that even lizards also want to stay there. There isn't this thing when we did not clean previously.

At night my mum, my eldest sis and me were roughly discussing how to include our study tables into the room. But somehow I was trying to suggest a really MAJOR revamp and no one actually appreciates it. At least treat it as a joke la! But no one did it.

And I flared up for having been listening my sis repeating the same words :" Please keep ur things! You have a lot of things!".

As if I do not want to keep my things; I am really just too lazy to do that as I really want to have proper sleep and entertainment! I have been working hard for so long and so tired to the fact that I have not been really studying. I just hope I can pass this sem continue the rest of the semesters.

In the uni, I realise that I am the kind of person that really needs to be pushed in order to achieve something. But in uni, there's no one to push me to work hard! So this is also one of the reason why I didn't study that much. Haha.

Sometimes I really wondered if I really should go out and work first. At least in this way I have some income and at the same time able to rest more and rather than just jump into studying after working for double jobs for like 3 to nearly 4 months.

I slept in lectures so much that I surprised myself. I am that daring now. Unbelievable right? To my poly mates. They have seen how I study and worked hard for my good results. I have really changed.

Changes are pushed by surroundings circumstances. But I have faith in destiny and gods that my life would be a better one. =) It seems very naive but this is indeed the thinking that has been helping me to move on.

And of course not forgetting the listening ears lent to me, the encouragements and advices from my buddies (Yuying, Sara, Ann Kay and Huisi)!!! Thanks so much! Really!!!

Up till now, I had my fun, rest and entertainment. Shall work hard the next sem so as to not to pass so badly! Haha.

But one more clubbing on the way.... Haha.